i'll be fine.

"bella i'm dying soon"
"omgosh why! nono you cant die"
"why??? ss's indirectly shooting arrows into my heart"
"omgosh he's gay! you can go for st!"
"nooooooooooo i neeed..... (before i can even finish my sentence..)"
"SHOPPING!!!! lets go shopping next week!!!!!!!!"

that's why i like being w bella. not like esther yeo, only knows how to stop me from shopping, still gimme what sms reminders. SO STUPID. *hahahahah*

school's bad. no more pokka bottled drinks. does not affects me anyway, i've been getting packet drinks since years ago hahaha. anw free period was awesome today, thou what happened only happened for 5min, i'm still happy hee hee haa haa hooo hoo. detention tmr w kallang aka kailin, sux!!!

i hope my dad wins another fone back in his company's D&D lucky draw agn. hehaha my previous fones were mostly sponsored by th company events hahhaa (all fones before my sony eric w89oi/980i) see! i dont even know my fone's model lol. i'm a nooooob.

does anyone knows how t dl th youtube thingg? some kuku brains did it for me last time but know they says it needs t be updated/upgraded or whatever i juz need help fuck you. i know nuts about it it's turning me nutttts! i'm gonna be like hazel.

tmr will be awesome i'm most prolly meeting bestfriend ehmygawd i miss her bye!

feels great.

thursday was probably th third worse night of my life till now.
airport wasnt awesome, speeding all th way t bukit batok was worse.
home was th worse of th worse.

friday sucks, i had t suffer in school.
thank god for th night time. awesome ppl came over.
rachel, angeline, huiting, junhan, kk, tosh, jeremy, rainee, weihong, i forgot who but <3 all of you.
damn sad cuz wo de eileen and cash never come :((((

ytd was awesome. i'm glad that meldric finally come and hug me on his own, and keeps on playing w mich & i. i'm glad that my dearest cousin could take th blow & i'm glad that nothing much happened and winnie jiejie's wedding will be still on. awesome much x10 i'm going for my fitting on tuesday. i'm glad that our family bond is much much closer now, like i dont used t talk t some of th ppl that much but now i could open out t them, started communicating alot w them. and my brother might be working under weiquan aka kcpss's sec3'09 camp @ kota tinggi camp chief! and weiquan's like trained out by shannon korkor! (not th one that came w us) srsly <3 my maternal side family members! they are FTW :) but i won only $2 in blackjack ytd, i was winning $20+ at first la! :(

today, had lunch w yichian & family, uncle wenhua & family & my family hee hee at grand pacific hotel. i ate there last week btw. i like being there cuz th food's great! thou it's a lil expensive but th service's awesome! and th ppl there loves me! :) (actually they loves my parents, not me) then went t ttsh t visit great grandma! (she's 99) loooool. then home!

i pray that grandma, mummy, daddy, brother, shuyi, all my three awesome aunties & uncles + my 8 other awesome cousins + dylan & meldric will be fine, healthy and happy 4eva! :D

preparing for th worse

i'm kinda prepared for tonight, i must be cheerful and play w meldric and make everyone else at least not to cry, i wouldnt hope for smiles. thank god all arrangements have been change and i'm pretty happy w th arrangements now. meldon, <3

mum: dress nicely ltr.
me: why? going airport only.
mum: that's why you have t dress nicely!
me: it's not asif we're going there for something great.
*but on second thoughts, i'll dress nicely, in a way of showing respects t my dearest nephew.*

before this crisis is over, my family is hit w another one, thou t my parents it's like bloody trivial matter, t me it's not. YOU, YOU & YOU, better watch out, after all i'm your senior in this school. *inserts cheeky smiles* becareful not t let me see you three tmr. comeon, sue us. *wow i love court cases* _|_

note to self: check your email every hour.
PS: i won $2 today again. blackjack ftw!
tmr will be th day... of gamble!!

i won $12 today in class while playing blackjack with th usuals. poor raxton lost round $50, and i helped lee yu quan recover some of his lost, i'm like th luckiest today. i got ban ban!

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you
get tired of kissing, you still want to be together
and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look
gross when they kiss”
Emily – age 8

today was better than expected, i'm beginning, trying to, accept th fact, and get along w life. i'm sure baby meldon wil be happy w me thinking this way, what i'm afraid of now is what's gna happen tmr. and after all that have happened, i guess i'll cherish and love dylan and meldric, more than i'll ever love my boyfriends in th future. cuz right now, dylan and meldric's my top priority, i luv them and will cherish them i swear. <3

PS: esther yeo, thanks for everything <3

i'll be fine.

have you ever tried listening t two piece of th worse news you can ever get in just in 3 weeks time? i've never thought that this would happen t me. but i'll be fine. i'll be strong. i'll be th one that will not let anyone worry this time round, i'm a grown up. i can't be childish. i've t think for others. why am i a grown up? why can't i be like before? when i can just cry and cry and ppl will come and console me and love me? why isit that i must think for others now? i dont wanna be a grown up.

hey baby meldon, R.I.P
yi yi loves you very much. see you, on thursday.
i'm sorry for not being able t send you off on friday.
i'm sure you'll love your new home.
yi yi misses you. very much.

i h8 korea's embassy.
i h8 korea, i'm never going to korea,
till i get over this matter.

my new year wasnt a good one,
with news like this and what's happening.
malacca wasnt that good too, no shopping.
only spent 200+sgd each on hair, with mich.
plus mummy daddy aunty wendy and uncle liang, spent like $1500 rm total on hair.
and got myself a something like wedges pink slipper.
coincidentally saw kathleen lim @ malacca too.

HAPPY VALENTINES & CNY PPL!

i wanted t post a damn long valentines post for my lovely friends but ya know! th tvb award's showing now! so i'm gna watch it oobviously haha i'm recording it i know but i cant wait!!1 anw, visiting was pretty awesome today. lion dance that came made my heart skip 10million beats. i was supposed t video it but i ended up running up t my room and hide.. wteff right? hahaha. i'm scared of lion dance hee hee. tmr will be a pretty long day i'm supposed t wake up at 7, go visiting then go fetch aunty wendy n mich n uncle liang then off we go t m'sia! i'm not done w packing thou haha in fact, have not started, but whatever it is... this year's ang bao money not yet up t expectations hahahah! thank god only a few big ones come in, still got like 3/4 more uncles that will give bigbig amount! *phew*

th sucky thing about today is, 3 of my *every new yeaar & big occasion* see th cousins/aunties, asked me who am i today. then i was like i'm zizhen! they didnt believe me, they went t ask my mom and th other relatives if i'm zizhen. fml right?

th rocky thing is that... i wasnt expecting a reply from ivan but he did!(email) yay!! gonna reply him now =D bye